When it rains...

Stressing the fuck out.

Enrolling in school was one thing. Getting used to homework another.

Lets see how much this plate can hold.

"Just a dream..."

Just when I think my life is perfect, the nightmares infect me. 

I suppose some wouldn't call them nightmares. But, I can't stop them, I don't want them, and I hate the sadness that accompanies them. So that's what I call them, "nightmares".

The feeling lingers throughout the day. I drive to work in silence. Lose myself in thought at random moments in the day. I think I'd like to scream, just to see if it will shake me out of this. 

"...and it felt like a bullet in her heart"

Puppy Love

Letting Kojak go is the hardest thing I've done in a while. I never really thought about how hard it would be. It's like he died, but I know he's out there alive and well laying in a sun spot on the floor or playing with his favorite toy. It's worse than if he died.

How long before I get over it that Kojak isn't mine anymore?

I can't remember the last time I felt this good about a path I had chosen... It just feels so right.

It's sad knowing that even though everything you have is wonderful it's still not what you wanted.

New Year, same self.

There are days that the wind will blow my hair in a certain way, I'll close my eyes and remember standing on that fence with my arms out to the side, watching you smile, feeling the wind at my back... One perfect moment.